As you lay in the cold, curled up into a ragged ball of dirty fur, no longer purring nor playing.
Life slowly escapes your fluffy coat.
As you close your weary eyes, for the last time..
I lay cozily under my warm blankets smothered in tears, night after night, aching in agony, breaking in hurt, sobbing helplessly, weeping endlessly.
My messi little fur ball.. sleep tight my cuddly bubble, for the pain of Death is much sweeter than the pain of loss!
© chaos-xd 2017
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A Glimpse of Darkness 
June 15, 2017 at 8:53 pm
Really sad 😦
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June 16, 2017 at 7:14 am
I wrote this sobbing under my blankies! 😭
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June 16, 2017 at 9:18 am
Bless
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June 16, 2017 at 9:44 am
You are such a kind heart
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June 17, 2017 at 10:29 am
and if you are not bro so what i call you
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June 17, 2017 at 11:38 am
Sis !!! Obviously.. or chaos
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June 17, 2017 at 1:02 pm
nice to meet you sister
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June 15, 2017 at 8:56 pm
Well done on your poem, it is emotional one and heart touching👍
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June 16, 2017 at 7:13 am
Thank you bro! It was definitely heart breaking to write this one!
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June 16, 2017 at 11:58 am
That’s great to find out from your comment that yours still alive👍
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June 15, 2017 at 9:01 pm
Blessed be x
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June 16, 2017 at 7:12 am
Much love!
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June 16, 2017 at 7:13 am
Good luck. Moon in Pisces now. Blessed be
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June 15, 2017 at 11:11 pm
You hit me hard with this one. This brought me to tears, mine was mamacat. I still miss the little beautiful black and white ball of fur. Thank you for sharing.
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June 16, 2017 at 7:12 am
I was so glad to see this comment.. not cause it made you sad cause you connected too deeply to the pain that created these words!! Thankyou!
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June 16, 2017 at 1:50 pm
It is the pain that made it so beautiful. You heart connecting with others in a way that brings appreciation for the joy that we have known and serving to also reduce the pain by sharing it. Once again thank you.
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June 15, 2017 at 11:54 pm
🙁 I still miss my black terror Tiber from childhood- well done.
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June 16, 2017 at 7:10 am
It’s indeed a terrible feeling to miss a pet so dear! Hugs!
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June 16, 2017 at 12:59 am
I hope it’s fiction! So sad and the sense of loss is so profoundly depicted by your lines! Those initial painful days following the loss are aptly described….how we terribly miss them….long for one last chance to meet again…and ponder over life! The more the love, the more excruciating this pain becomes…and longer time to heal!
Happy to see your next post so soon!! 😊Wasnt expecting (and was still savouring the after-taste of your previous one). And i finally managed to restrain myself a little to keep comment length in check this time..yay!! 😁
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June 16, 2017 at 7:10 am
Wasn’t expecting to write so soon but I had to project out the sadness that stole my sleep from last night..
Sadly this isn’t fiction!
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June 17, 2017 at 6:15 pm
Oh no… that’s what i feared!! How is your pet now?? I do wish and pray that things soon become better for you! I know the feeling when someone is critical and the fear of losing haunts you! But this is life and we can only do as much as we have in our hands which i think you are already doing. Hope for the best! Stay strong! Good you let it out on wp.
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June 17, 2017 at 11:11 pm
I was makin some calculations based on the break between your comments that you might have replied today and yes.. I was accurate as always 😎👌
Speaking of messi.. he is still alive.. I haven’t made up my mind completely that he would be okay.. but, he might most probably. I don’t want to jinx it.. he sits up.. tries to take a few steps to his bowl of water.. drinks water only (swallows milk if I force feed him) I’ve been in and out of the veterinary place .. he might make it.
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June 17, 2017 at 11:18 pm
My phone beeped and i smiled. I knew it would be you at this time. And i was correct (sometimes 😛).
Haha that was sweet of you! 😄
Sorry i know i am not regular these days…hectic and doing everything alone! Waiting for friday so that i can escape for 2 weeks of vacation at home!
Glad to hear he is alive…Yeah dont jinx …just do everything you can… observe silently and pray for his recovery! Take care of yourself too! You are fasting and doing so many things. Hope all the problems are resolved soon!
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June 18, 2017 at 11:27 am
Haha.. this comment made me smile. Wow two weeks at home sound like a feast! The last few blessed days with the family I suppose..
Messi is not giving up.. he’s trying to walk around and gets about like Mr. Wibble Wobble!
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June 18, 2017 at 11:30 pm
Yeah i will be feasting and cant wait for it to begin!! 😁 Why do you say last few? 🤔 ( Sorry my brain stops working as evening approaches!)
Messi is strong!!! Hoping for the best!
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June 19, 2017 at 2:11 am
Isn’t it the last week of Ramadan?
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June 21, 2017 at 12:41 pm
Oh i was confused …thought you meant last few days of me!! 😵😁 Silly me! 😒 Yeah actually last 2-3 days of ramadan only but will be staying one whole week after that too at home! Doing nothing but eating and sleeping and eating and 😊 sleeping again! Cant wait!!
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June 16, 2017 at 4:32 am
Ohh 😔
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June 16, 2017 at 7:07 am
Heartbroken!
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June 16, 2017 at 8:19 am
..memories shall remain as the balm!
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June 16, 2017 at 5:53 pm
Memories are the wounds
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June 17, 2017 at 2:51 am
Time shall fill those wounds and leave none but only good memorise.
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June 16, 2017 at 5:20 am
It’s very painful for me when I think one day I will lose someone that means a lot to me. I can’t even imagine how painful it was for you. 😢😢..
God bless the soul of Messi…
R.I.P
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June 16, 2017 at 7:06 am
Messi is still alive.. unconscious. Undergone a surgery and is in a critical situation.. hope he pulls though! It would depress me to a whole eternity if I lost him!
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June 16, 2017 at 7:08 am
Sorrrrrryyy 🙈🙈🙈🙈…..
I misunderstood….
I’m really sorry……
I hope he gets well soon….
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June 16, 2017 at 7:09 am
No no.. I wrote the post based on a loss of a beloved pet.. I thought I’d lose him by this morning but he’s still alive! 😏✌
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June 16, 2017 at 7:10 am
Then it’s your fault 😑😑…
I’m taking my sorry back…
You naughty Princess 👑😑
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June 16, 2017 at 6:31 am
Please don’t tell me something to that cat! 😭😭😭
I have never had any pet, but still such emotions makes me want to cry sooo bad!
And moreover you carve those emotions sooo deeply that they never miss to touch my heart!!! I really hope this is all fiction; 😭😭 Please!
The last line just made a hole in my heart! 😭 went straight through it! I don’t even know why I am feeling so sad!
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June 16, 2017 at 7:04 am
I’d crave emotions from dead people and embraced that pain welcoming it but not from pets… I can’t handle the loss of a pet and this unfortunately is not fiction! The cat is still alive and unconscious..
I’m heartbroken!
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June 16, 2017 at 7:16 am
😩😩😩 My heart is broken too! I really hope she recovers!
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June 16, 2017 at 7:37 am
That last line is the best I have ever read..can feel the pain..Take care..I wish your cat recovers soon..I too can’t handle the loss of a pet and that’s the reason I don’t have pets at home.
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June 16, 2017 at 7:55 am
The same reason why my mother has strictly said ‘No’ to any pet in the house! She says that the loss of a pet is too painful to bear!
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June 16, 2017 at 8:01 am
This poem made me remember the death of the pet in relative’s home. It was affected with some disease. to avoid spreading it to other dogs and for us, they gave poison in it’s food. I was a child. I don’t remember how long I cried. I decided I will not have any pets in my lifetime.
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June 16, 2017 at 5:54 pm
That’s unbearably cruel.. I’ve seen a few people who do that too and i can’t help but curse them to die suffering a much more painful death.
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June 16, 2017 at 5:57 pm
Don’t do that..they were left with no option.
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June 16, 2017 at 6:01 pm
There is no such thing as “No option” and poisoning an animal is never an option.. its fucking evil!
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June 16, 2017 at 6:05 pm
If they have 3 children and one gets an infection and they want to save the other two kids from being infected.. do they kill the sick child?
What difference is the dog from the child.. only thing I could think of is that a dog may sometimes remain loyal for the rest of their lives when their children turn sour..
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June 16, 2017 at 6:08 pm
I’m not supporting it..I just couldn’t take your previous reply..that’s why I had to tell that..let their sins be forgiven.
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June 16, 2017 at 6:10 pm
Every sin leaves a scar that needs to be paid for in order to be forgiven!
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June 16, 2017 at 5:54 pm
Nothing wiser has ever been told!
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June 19, 2017 at 8:32 am
I hope you’re fine, now! And Messi is all good. 😊
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June 16, 2017 at 5:57 pm
Thank you JenJen. Having so much help and encouragement surely keeps my unbearable sorrows within bearable range!
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June 16, 2017 at 7:54 am
I felt such pain 3 times….I lost my 3 kittens and their death wasn’t normal. A group of dogs killed one, a car killed the second, a cruel neighbour killed the 3rd. The last one was the toughest for me to bear.
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June 16, 2017 at 5:56 pm
I hope that neighbouring piece of inhumane rotten shit face died a death with more pain and suffering! I can’t believe sick assholes are still alive among us humans..
Throw a stone at their window or just poison the bitches pasta!
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June 17, 2017 at 6:45 am
All I do is cursing him everyday.
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June 16, 2017 at 9:44 am
Pain of death is better than pain of loss..this line is gem..wonderful yet sorrowful
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June 16, 2017 at 9:57 am
This is absolutely what it is like. EVERY time. I’ve had numerous cats and a couple of dogs. They leave to wander another one of their lives and I am in tears. No matter how many kitters we have had, they were all different and had special places. Sending hope and peace to you, my dear friend. {{hugs}}
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June 16, 2017 at 5:50 pm
I know exactly what you mean here.. like every loss takes away a part of you that could never be replaced.. wow! I hate that sort of pain.. and it’s at its highest level now!
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June 17, 2017 at 10:01 am
Not liking. Sending you lots of love, though.
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June 16, 2017 at 5:51 pm
And unbearably painful and unfortunately truthful..
I don’t even know what I’m saying..
Thank you for your comments sparkly Kalyan..
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June 16, 2017 at 5:53 pm
Ohhh..sorry..am I making you remember you sad incident again?? I don’t know that you love that soo much
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June 16, 2017 at 6:02 pm
It’s not something I’d want to recall cause this is happening in the present.
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June 16, 2017 at 6:03 pm
Oh my god….What you are gonna do?? Is there something you could do???
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June 16, 2017 at 6:03 pm
I am in the process of doing everything that is possible .. the left is for the almighty to decide!
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June 16, 2017 at 6:07 pm
Ok..let me tell you something…if not today it’s someday..that happens with everyone,every living,we know that..but we get too attached.SUPPOSE if it’s saved now,,are you ready to face the same situation in future?? Because someday it has to go..I don’t know what I am saying but..just compare it with big things,like a new born baby dies for three months in hands of mother?? How sad it is?? Or A small baby girl whose parents dies in accident?? it’s Better than those case..you are there for it..So what you can Dow..but if it didn’t worked..just save the moments in your heart which it gave you
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June 16, 2017 at 6:09 pm
A new born baby dying is no different from my cat dying for me..
But I do get your point .. me being there for it ain’t gonna save anything If I can’t save it’s life
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June 16, 2017 at 6:13 pm
But it’s not in your hand,What you are gonna do??? See something’s are not in our hand,How far you try there are things which are controlled by someone who is beyond us.I don’t know that you are that sensitive to your cat
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June 16, 2017 at 9:56 am
I’m so sorry, it’s heartbreaking! 😥
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June 16, 2017 at 5:50 pm
It sure is devastating Ally! Thanks honey!
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June 17, 2017 at 12:44 pm
My thought are with you! xxxxx
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June 18, 2017 at 11:29 am
Thankyou Ally honey!
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June 16, 2017 at 10:55 am
Heart touching.
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June 16, 2017 at 5:42 pm
Thanks love! It broke mine deeply!
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June 16, 2017 at 12:01 pm
Tears came to my eyes reading this… he will be fine now. Don’t worry chaos.. I know the pain when a pet is dying.. cats don’t die easily.. (9 lives) God bless him I’m sure he will be fine soon
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June 16, 2017 at 5:40 pm
I hope so .. he’s sitting up a bit and swallowed some milk I force fed him.. I’ve been texting the doc nonstop and will be taking him tomorrow too.. if messi dies Vaas.. a biggest part of me will die with him!
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June 16, 2017 at 5:52 pm
He won’t chaos always feed him something as long as he stays healthy he will be alright.. don’t worry!
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June 16, 2017 at 1:44 pm
Dude. The poems very beautifully written. But it my heart just shattered into a million pieces.
If this is real, I’m so sorry 😭😭
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June 16, 2017 at 5:33 pm
It is real..thankyou for the love!
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June 16, 2017 at 1:48 pm
Beautiful!
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June 16, 2017 at 5:32 pm
Thanks love!
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June 17, 2017 at 11:06 am
You’re welcome!
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June 16, 2017 at 2:55 pm
the pain of Death is much sweeter than the pain of loss…….
*sigh* the pain of loss makes every pain seem faded
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June 16, 2017 at 4:39 pm
It sure does .. the pain of Death ends after one is dead.. but his loss remains for an eternity!
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June 16, 2017 at 4:29 pm
The love & affection is depicted so well !!
My wishes for Messi..
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June 16, 2017 at 4:38 pm
Thankyou Su, I’ve put messi to sleep.. today was one of the hardest days for me!
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June 16, 2017 at 5:07 pm
More strength to you..
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June 16, 2017 at 6:13 pm
Expected a brilliant goal or godly skills by Leo Messi, still, not disappointed!!!
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June 16, 2017 at 6:16 pm
My brother named him after Leo messi and now.. he’s kicking his own goal 😭
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June 16, 2017 at 6:17 pm
Ups and downs, glories and failures… Happens all the time but doesn’t affect his might😍 or any other player’s. And whyyyy do you make me like the dark side? I’m never joining the dark side anyway xD
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June 16, 2017 at 6:19 pm
The Dark side is where the core of everything lays profound and raw.. you may lurk within the brightness all you want my wise friend.. but every dawn has it’s dusk and life is never a maze when that darkness is your best friend!
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June 16, 2017 at 6:26 pm
I never see the darkness as an enemy of mine, yet there’s warmth in light that keeps me motivated so, on the contrary, darkness is like that sibling of mine that I can’t live without nor live with. Somehow it’s a place where my sweetest secrets lie! It’s like “Valar Dohaeris” to my “Valar Morghulis”
GOT REFERENCE!
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June 17, 2017 at 2:37 pm
Darkness is like a sibling of yours whom you can neither live with or without …wow that phrase is class! 👌👌
The waifs face ended up on the wall only cause darkness was aryas home and the waif couldn’t battle in it no matter how stronger..faster or better she was.
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June 17, 2017 at 4:28 pm
Indeed! The way she sliced Needle through the candle was veryyyy classic.
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June 18, 2017 at 11:28 am
I rewatched that part like a few million times..
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June 18, 2017 at 4:36 pm
Bwahaha
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June 16, 2017 at 8:34 pm
Ouch.
The words hit deep. I know how you are feeling. And also very sorry hear it.
Poignant and well written, nonetheless.
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June 18, 2017 at 11:41 am
Thankyou heaps dark bud, I only manage to write well when I’m heartbroken!
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June 18, 2017 at 12:41 pm
You’re welcome.
And I hear you.
I also do in similar situations.
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June 17, 2017 at 1:58 am
This breaks my heart, I really really hope he makes it. I’ve never yet had to deal with the loss of a pet – in fact it’s my baby’s first birthday today – but whichever way it goes, lots of love and hugs to you from me and Apollo
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June 17, 2017 at 1:58 pm
aww ..congratulations on your little ones first year! Thankyou Apollo..and I’m sorry you had to read this depressing post on your special day.. hugs and kisses!!
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June 17, 2017 at 10:30 am
why i can’t follow your blogs
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June 17, 2017 at 10:31 am
when i click on follow it shown you are unable to follow this blog
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June 17, 2017 at 11:37 am
You’re already following.. ✋😏
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June 17, 2017 at 5:09 pm
I really want to know..how is he now?
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June 18, 2017 at 11:28 am
I’ve made a whole new post after seeing this comment 😙✌
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June 18, 2017 at 11:47 am
I’m glad you wrote..He will be fine soon 👍 I’ve never loved a pet like you do..sending some love to him. Take care.
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June 18, 2017 at 11:48 am
When I love.. its unconditional and it’s sometimes so hard to love so deep.. thats why ive built this wall around myself to prevent myself from getting attached to people.. but animals are fine!
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June 18, 2017 at 11:49 am
I understand. I can’t complain..be you bcos you’re the best.
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June 18, 2017 at 12:01 pm
You too sunshine!
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June 18, 2017 at 10:18 am
It must have broken your heart to write something so painful. All I can say now is a quote from ‘Narnia’
‘Courage dear heart’
Best wishes
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June 18, 2017 at 10:58 am
Thankyou darling.. I literally wrote thing while sobbing myself to sleep.. I could only manage to get some sleep after I’d channeled all my sorrow to this post.
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June 18, 2017 at 11:28 am
Writing helps
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June 18, 2017 at 11:30 am
Greatly!
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June 18, 2017 at 11:31 am
🙂
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June 18, 2017 at 4:46 pm
That was really ecstatic touching warm feel😢😢
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June 18, 2017 at 4:53 pm
Hurt me pretty bad trying to put those words together! Thanks Deepak.. 😏✌
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June 18, 2017 at 4:55 pm
Sorry I couldn’t get words for those emotions😧 ..all in all it was too much…I’m sorry if it hurted u😥😥
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June 18, 2017 at 4:57 pm
It didn’t …thankyou so much for your comment! 😏✌
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July 4, 2017 at 11:10 pm
Your energy levels radiate from this one I truly feel every word
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August 21, 2017 at 9:17 am
much love Cory! i see youve taken your time to comment and catch up on all my posts.. which excites me greatly!! very much appreciated .. xoxo
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August 21, 2017 at 8:13 pm
Thank you for creating all that you do tour effort is appreciated as well
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