When the clock struck twelve,
And they, shut-eye.
The whispers began
The unforgiving cry.
My thoughts and dreams,
In a perfect swirl.
Lost in the darkness
Another broken girl.
When the darkness draped
My empty core,
Spreading the flames
from head to toe.
I screamed; I cried,
Throughout the night
The Diabolic shadow
Slept by my side.
Blood soaked towels
Came out to play,
After the moonlight
Crept out of my way.
Seven years later,
As the shadows flee,
The Queen of Darkness
Is what they call me.
Sleepless nights
A scar from the past.
I sometimes miss the
The pain that lasts.
Cradled in your arms..
Strangled by sleep
I doze off drowning
In this love so deep!
© chaos–xd • 2017
Other poems
- Insanity •°
- Goodbye•°
- You!
- Venom •°
- Death •°
- Caged
- Burn
- Heartless
- Silent Darkness
- °• The Circus
- Hurricane •°
- Flames
- Eternity •°
- Forever•°
- Chaos
- Drowning•°
- Embraced
- Evanescent
- Masks of Death °•
- °•Rubbish
- Beautiful Sin
- Poisoned
- Red Birds
- No more
A Glimpse of Darkness 
June 13, 2017 at 3:00 pm
Oh no!! I missed to be the first liker!!
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June 13, 2017 at 3:10 pm
Haha.. I know that feeling bro! You’re actually the very first person I honestly liked as a human being on WordPress.. breaking the virtual norms…reading your posts and comment flood chatting with you just blew my mind with so much positivity.. so even if you’re the last to like or comment.. You’ll still be among the closest to my heart and one of the very few people I love on this site!
Wow that turned out to become an emotional speech! 😊👏👏
Applause to my smart ass!
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June 13, 2017 at 3:19 pm
😭😭😭😭😭Thank you very much!
I blog for a reason, and THIS is the reason!! Because I just can’t explain in words how good it feels to get love and support from friends like you!!!
You were like a cloud of darkness that came to brighten up my world. (I really think that I wouldn’t be writing poems if it weren’t for your amazing posts that motivated me!!)
You will also always remain close to my fluffy panda heart Miss Dark Ji! You’re just soooooo amazing!!! 🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈
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June 14, 2017 at 9:49 am
Getting love and support will never be a challenge for you cause you are like a born magnet for it! Just so amazing that people would love to love you! 😊
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June 14, 2017 at 10:31 am
And your darkness will never cease to brighten up my day!!! Thank you very much!!! 🙂
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June 13, 2017 at 3:00 pm
But I just realized I am the first COMMENTOR!!! I’M IN TEARS!!! 😆😆😆😆😂😂😂
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June 13, 2017 at 3:03 pm
“Seven years later,
As the shadows flee,
The Queen of Darkness
Is what they call me.”
And this is the reason for that!!! Because you write sooo amazing Miss Dark Ji!! 😊 I was waiting for your posts for so long, and came with a ‘Bang’!
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June 13, 2017 at 3:06 pm
Haha.. I’ve added a small note for you at the end of my post!
Queen of Darkness Is what you call me..
Majority of my WordPress fambam call me that after you started it…so you’re first at that too! 👌
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June 13, 2017 at 3:11 pm
First things first, Thank you sooo much for declaring it to the world that I’m a MALE panda!!! 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
But I call you Miss Dark Ji. (I wonder if ‘I’ started that, that’s a discovery! 😂😂) Because you sit on the throne of shining darkness! 🙈🙈✌ 😊😊
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June 13, 2017 at 3:12 pm
I think we had a conversation on what you’re gonna call me .. and all these names were suggested and u picked Miss Dark Ji and others picked other names from that post..
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June 13, 2017 at 3:13 pm
I am glad no one else calls you by this name. I’m not gonna share it with anyone! 😂😂😂
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June 13, 2017 at 3:02 pm
Still the Queen of Darkness, chaos. This is lovely.
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June 13, 2017 at 3:07 pm
Thankyou Bryan! It’s so amazing to see you comment on this post.. I literally just threw some words together and I didn’t expect it to turn out well! 😏✌
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June 13, 2017 at 3:13 pm
Wow, it is stunning and heart touching, thanks for sharing.
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June 18, 2017 at 12:07 pm
It’s definitely a pleasure to see such comments! Thank you heaps Hussein bruh! 😎✌
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June 18, 2017 at 12:42 pm
Most welcome, Chaos! 😄
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June 13, 2017 at 3:16 pm
“The Diabolic shadow
Slept by my side”
Wow! Just wow.
It stirred something in me. I don’t think I would have connected with it so deeply if this was written two months back.
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June 13, 2017 at 3:17 pm
I thinks it triggered the dark clouds and the thunder storms that swirl beneath the cute chirpiness within your soul.. hugs and kisses sugar pudding!
Please give me a week to catch up with your amaziing series btw! 😙✌
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June 13, 2017 at 3:25 pm
Thanks for sending warm hugs my way honey. I think I need them these days. God! This much melancholia doesn’t suit me.😅😅 I have to maintain my cuteness 😉😁😁 And the story is over darling. Read it whenever you get time. No pressure! 😎✌
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June 14, 2017 at 9:49 am
No melancholy can ever wipe out your cuteness! 😙
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June 14, 2017 at 11:39 am
😄😄😘😘
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June 13, 2017 at 3:31 pm
Damn chaos this I the best poem of yours I have ever read!!
“When the darkness draped
My empty core,
Spreading the flames
from head to toe.”
Love this line…
Read it 3 times and it was so nice I kinda sang it lol😂
Awsome poem everrrr!
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June 14, 2017 at 9:48 am
Wow..really?!
This coming from you Vaas..
Completely shocked me and made my day! I didn’t expect this poem to come out so well.. 😏✌
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June 14, 2017 at 9:57 am
Yay!! I’m happy seeing this reply😄
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June 13, 2017 at 3:41 pm
i was beginning to wonder why no posts from you….was thinking maybe the next one is a painting and it’s taking time…. but before i could ask, you came up with this!! This is one of the finest example of how to write a deep, engaging work which is in few words as well to fit as a poem!! Each four line block raises the bar which is fulfilled and complimented perfectly by the next block! Such beautiful chaining… Such beautiful linking…and such beautiful description of the sleepless nights can only be written by you – The Queen of Darkness!!! So smooth was the flow between each block!! I read this on my phone and for a moment I just stayed so lost! Like a faint realization which suddenly engulfs you completely! So so relatable. Made me remember my sleepless nights! You are truly gifted!! You have said a lot in these few lines…the painful struggles, fighting off random thoughts, going over troublesome past, that feeling of loneliness, of monsters under the bed and everywhere, the game of shadows and the tricks of the mind – all of which get activated like demons at midnight when you try to sleep in silence! Simply stunning and mindblowing capture of those haunting moments!! Really loved it so much! ❤❤
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June 14, 2017 at 9:47 am
I just scrolled up and down even before reading what you’ve written enjoying and cherishing the length of this comment like wow..
No posts from me cause I’m a teacher and it’s the end of the second term and I’m completely tied up.. work is hectic ..I’m fasting. I’m tired when I’m home and I’m like a inflated air panda giant after iftar cause I’ve over eaten!
This was I just instantly put together cause Harsh had asked twice about the slacking posts and I was running out of paintings cause I dont paint anymore and I just post my old paintings.
I was shocked to see how peopled loved this poem and seeing all this praise ans positivity from you just blows my mind!
I remember I used to refer to you as my insomniac buddy.. it takes someone who’s been there to understand the true depth of the feelings behind this poem and I’m so very excited that it was you who would connect with it on a deeper level.
This is Longest I’ve ever commented in my blogging life and I’d like you to know that your comment just completely fulfilled my purpose of blogging! Thankyou
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June 15, 2017 at 1:50 am
Oh yeah i realised it only after submitting the comment that i had *again* gone overboard on an emotional drive!! 🙄 I can’t keep it short until and unless I have let out all the feelings after being emotionally stirred by something! 🙈 Few blogger’s posts do that to me…yours being one of them!
I understand you are being tied up and exhausted from fasting…and an over-stuffed panda post-iftaar!! 😹 Same here!! Trying to tie up the fragmented day and making most of the small quantum of sleep is keeping me occupied as well! Morning i have to drag myself to work but mind is somewhere else throughout the tiring day and then I don’t get to sleep easily at night! And then in parallel doing house hunting as well which is a tiring job!! And i am going home next week for a long holiday (13 days!! and after 7 months!!) so trying to finish everything before that! And fasting! And so many other things that mind is going crazy!! 😰
As a consequence im lagging behind here on wp and I have to catchup on so many posts now!! Maybe will take a week or more!!
Special thanks to Harsh for poking you to write this!! 😁 You dont paint anymore is just for this month right? Dont tell me you have stopped altogether!! 😱
This poem was bound to get this much praise! It was amazing! Sometimes things done with not much efforts but with genuine emotions and from the heart do turn out better than we expect!! So no surprises here! ☺
Insomniac buddy!! Yes i remember! 😊 That’s why i could relate to it i think.
Thanks so much for taking time out to reply with such a lovely comment!! 🤗 It’s the longest comment anyone has ever written for me till date and I really appreciate the efforts and love!! Absolutely thrilled and so happy!!! (and needless to say but i have read it so many times now since yesterday! 😁). You are awesome!! 😄
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June 18, 2017 at 12:11 pm
Oh my god this comment was like a bonus shower to me I had to relax before replying.. haha..
I actually prefer busy a Ramadan cause when I don’t have stuff to do. . It makes me hangry! (Hungry+angry) you’re work definitely sounds entirely hectic and tiring.. hope you find a house soon and the vacation will definitely help greatly!
I’ve stopped painting cause I’m so busy but yes.. I promise I’ll get back to it..
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June 18, 2017 at 11:40 pm
😊
Yeah me too prefer being busy..takes mind off! Hangry!! Haha…thanks for adding to my vocab!! 😛 I have finally found a house!! After so much efforts and negotiations and running everywhere!! It’s a nice apartment though i had to shell out a lot for it 😒 – 21st floor, breezy and balcony with nice view of hills and partially of sea..looking forward to moving soon once i return from vacation!!
Ok so it is not permanent then!! Yeah things would be hectic..understandable!! Waiting for your next painting!
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June 19, 2017 at 2:09 am
Will you be going a house tour post?
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June 21, 2017 at 12:37 pm
Yes i plan to…once i shift in first week of July. Already thinking about the hectic shifting thing …i will land here and will have to shift to new house next day! No time to rest 😰
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June 15, 2017 at 1:55 am
…..oh no…and here i go again!! 🙈🙈🙈 So long!! Too much!! Embarrassing!! 😞
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June 18, 2017 at 12:12 pm
Haha.. someone was like.. wow you’ve comments with so many paragraphs..and I was like yay!!!
I knew it was from you and I was overwhelmed to see all the lovely things you’ve said.. that was like a happiness shower!
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June 18, 2017 at 11:46 pm
Haha.. comments with paragraphs!! 😛😛 lol…I knowww 🙈 im too verbose 🙊
Im afraid WP will soon put a limit on comment length because of me! 😛😜😝
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June 19, 2017 at 2:09 am
Haha. Let’s move out if that happens! 👊😒
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June 21, 2017 at 12:35 pm
Deal!! 👍
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June 13, 2017 at 3:52 pm
A nice one. I wonder why you wrote, “I sometimes miss the The pain that lasts”. Has the character stopped feeling things around her?
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June 13, 2017 at 4:02 pm
The pain from the slit wrists and the overdosed pills.. the writer no longer feels..
So sometimes those feelings are missed.. cause no matter how much it hurts it was something really close to the heart..and all she had at that time!
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June 13, 2017 at 4:29 pm
Wow! That’s deep. Thank for the explanation. 😃
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June 13, 2017 at 11:26 pm
With pleasure! 😏✌
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June 13, 2017 at 4:03 pm
Amazingly written!
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June 14, 2017 at 9:40 am
Thanks love! 😙🍕
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June 13, 2017 at 4:43 pm
I’m nobody to say anything about your poem. If I say, it’s beautiful then it’s just because the way it rhymes. If I say, I felt sad then it’s because of the pain hidden in those words that could make any poet cry. If I say, I can understand the pain then it’s just because I write rhymes and I know how, people like us jiggle the pain and throw the words on the paper. And if I say, I can understand ‘YOUR PAIN’ then it’s nothing more than a lie and you know I’m not a liar.
May God bless you with all the happiness that you deserve.
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June 13, 2017 at 11:26 pm
I love.. I love.. I absolutely love your honesty in your comments.. this was such a realistic comment..
…I’ll take it as a compliment! Why thank you heaps..😏✌
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June 14, 2017 at 2:48 am
Welcome Princess 👑 😗 ✌
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June 13, 2017 at 5:50 pm
This is beautifully expressed👍👍
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June 13, 2017 at 11:22 pm
Thank you super real sunshine! 😙✌
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June 14, 2017 at 3:38 am
Haha 😀
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June 13, 2017 at 6:08 pm
It felt like these words were coming out straight from the heart…I hope you’re good..
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June 13, 2017 at 11:21 pm
This was about seven years ago and how I don’t feel that way anymore.. I love how concerned you guys are.. makes me feel like WordPress is one big warm happy family! Hugs hugs sugar pudding! 😙✌
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June 14, 2017 at 5:53 am
I’m happy you don’t feel like that anymore 😊😊 I am concerned for a few people here… I consider you and a few others my family!!!❤❤ Bless you!! 😇😇 Pizza for you!!!! 😊😊😄😄
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June 14, 2017 at 9:35 am
Hugs and pizzas back at you spectacle clumsy pizza babe! 👓🍕😚✌
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June 14, 2017 at 10:42 am
😘😘😘
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June 13, 2017 at 6:09 pm
Very beautiful. Very true….
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June 13, 2017 at 11:19 pm
Thank you heaps and bounds! 😏✌
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June 14, 2017 at 12:03 am
😉
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June 13, 2017 at 10:13 pm
Fitting that I read this during a thunderstorm- it’s perfectly eerie 🖤
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June 13, 2017 at 11:18 pm
A perfect eerie for me..is like a romantic date for me! 😙✌
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June 13, 2017 at 11:13 pm
Each stanza/set of 4 lines has a kernel which snags the soul and makes you read it over and over. Good work!!!!! Very good work.
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June 13, 2017 at 11:17 pm
Haha.. I was actually slightly proud of myself for putting this one together and now after I’ve seen your comment I’m over the world.. like wow!
You make me feel amaze balls!!
Much love Kris! 😙✌
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June 13, 2017 at 11:44 pm
I love your stuff. Not that you may have noticed….. :o)
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June 14, 2017 at 9:39 am
What I have noticed is you’re comments are magically honest and definitely heartwarming! Love you 😙✌
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June 16, 2017 at 9:37 am
You made me smile and giggle!!!
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June 14, 2017 at 1:43 am
Beautiful. Good to see you posting again. I’ve missed you!
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June 14, 2017 at 9:39 am
You guys make me feel so much loved and accepted! Thank you heaps hun! 😙
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June 14, 2017 at 9:36 pm
You are so welcome my love.
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June 14, 2017 at 6:24 am
follow me please i m new on wordpress
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June 14, 2017 at 9:34 am
This is now how you gain them followers bro! 😏✋
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June 14, 2017 at 1:02 pm
Right in the face! Like pros! 😂😂😂😂😂
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June 14, 2017 at 1:44 pm
Lol, I mean like seriously! 😄
We don’t want them charity followers now do we? 😒
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June 14, 2017 at 3:00 pm
Haha! You now just now I made a discovery! I got to know that you’re a teacher! That’s sooo awesome!
I just posted a post on destiny, would you like to read it please? 😊😊
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June 14, 2017 at 11:09 pm
Yes sure, why not! 😊
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June 17, 2017 at 9:34 am
yes bro i don’t have idea
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June 17, 2017 at 9:43 am
I’m not a bro.. if you want followers you have to follow people.. read and comment on their writings and they will return the favor.. you don’t make followers here.. you make friends and they follow you.
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June 17, 2017 at 10:28 am
thanks for advice i do now first i follow you and then others
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June 17, 2017 at 10:32 am
i done
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June 17, 2017 at 10:33 am
if you don’t mind do you share with me your instagram Twitter etc
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June 17, 2017 at 11:37 am
I dont chat and I’m kinda mean but you may follow my instagram if you wish to
Chaostxd
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June 14, 2017 at 7:25 am
I think it the best one… 😎
Beautiful!
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June 14, 2017 at 9:34 am
Wow…hearing this from people is really brightening up my tiresome days!! Thanks Su 😏✌
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June 14, 2017 at 10:29 am
You’re Welcome 😃
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June 14, 2017 at 9:30 am
It made me cry. I recently lost someone I deeply trust, in terms of faith and trust. I could connect to every word of it.I’m sobbing now,and this is a rare compliment from myself,as myself and as a writer.
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June 14, 2017 at 9:38 am
I know exactly what it feels like and I also know that it’s something that has to pass and nothing I say or do will even take away the darkness that surrounds you after betrayal.
I just wish I could give you a hug.. I really appreciate your comment and the fact that you shared your experience with me! Hugs!!
Feel better soon! 😚✌
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June 14, 2017 at 9:44 am
love you, mate! it’s like i received those hugs simply through words!
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June 14, 2017 at 10:28 am
There is a lot that I can relate to here.
I don’t know dear about the darkness,a and being it’s queen but what I do know is I can feel every inch of the pain with your words written. It may be a fictional character, it may be a true story, but I have lived it, and lived it through. I am not even ashamed of acknowledging that I have seen the darkness that you talk about. I just don’t know if it ever goes!
“my empty core” “seven years later” “my sleepless nights” there was a lot of things here that I could go ramble on and keep relating to. But I don’t want to hide beneath that darkness again.
Anyways, I should just stop scribbling now, and just tell you how beautiful you write.
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June 14, 2017 at 11:12 pm
Seeing and been through the darkness is never something to ashamed of.. its like an acquisition of a stronger level of training to combat life.. cause going through a difficult phase only makes an individual stronger!
I’m glad this poem could touch your heart and I’m glad that you’re no longer behind that veil of darkness..
Hugs! 😙
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June 15, 2017 at 8:52 am
No longer behind? Well I cannot assure that!
S
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June 15, 2017 at 8:53 am
Sometimes I still wonder have I really left behind the darkness, or is it still following me?
(Hit send even before I could complete.)
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June 15, 2017 at 8:07 pm
I dont think it never leaves anyone completely.. we either get used to it and live with it or it just blends with the inner light in our souls and fades out, just a bit!
I’d never want darkness to leave me!
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June 16, 2017 at 10:08 am
Now that’s a thought 🙂
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June 14, 2017 at 7:19 pm
I like that ☺
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June 14, 2017 at 11:09 pm
Haha.. thanks losh! 😏✌
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June 15, 2017 at 3:45 am
Aww this one captures the atmosphere of what happened thru out many years amazingly..all those years we were close and far flashed before my eyes reading this and left a sense of pride and warmth as after all we are still here.it’s like our separate paths which crossed many a time finally lead us here ..
When the long nights over
And after the sleepless hour
Needless we hide our heads under cover
My Star-Crossed lover..
Every drop of blood you’ve bled
Lonely tears on which you’ve fed
Will be my breath instead
For the long miles ahead..
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June 18, 2017 at 12:15 pm
This was the time we got to know each other .. I’ll never forget the times you helped me through the darkness when I first fell into it.. you were so familiar with it and I was amazed..
You write so beautifully…I feel like Cynarah should be a poem of yours! Please write two more stanzas for this and post it on your blog or ill do it for you!
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June 19, 2017 at 6:38 am
The way I remember u helped me more than I ever helped u..u were always stronger.
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June 15, 2017 at 9:58 am
Seven years later, you’re loved as a writer.. Let your words reach millions ..sleepless nights are only a scar from the past. Now, Doze off drowning in this love so deep. Take care.
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June 15, 2017 at 8:05 pm
Sometimes I love to stay up and feel the comforting pain that once belonged to me..but then I wake up like a zombie the other day! 😄
Thankyou for your heartwarming comments! You truely fill my days with joy!
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June 15, 2017 at 8:19 pm
It’s always been my pleasure.
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June 15, 2017 at 11:08 am
Having goosebumps….I could relate to this like damn…somehow people like us get used to the pain….even when it’s gone….we miss those dark days. They’ll always live in our insomniac eyes, we’ll fall in those nightmare and somehow we’ll want to be In this nightmare….sucker for pain we are✌😏
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June 15, 2017 at 8:04 pm
I know right babe.. not everyone would understand why and how we are connected to the pain but it takes a ride though the storm to actually relate to that kinda darkness u suppose!
Love your new pic! 😏👌
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June 15, 2017 at 8:30 pm
Yeah..I never understand
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June 16, 2017 at 2:27 am
It’s not just a new pic….I’m in a whole new form here…check my latest post….and make sure that you’ll check….much love❤
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June 16, 2017 at 7:08 am
I will for sure hun! ✌
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June 16, 2017 at 5:13 am
Your poems have the power to chill one’s bones
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June 16, 2017 at 7:07 am
Wow.. this comment just brightened my stressful day! Thanks love! 😙
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June 17, 2017 at 12:07 pm
Welcome!!
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June 18, 2017 at 3:57 pm
Oh God this is so deep and intriguing!Love the way you write.
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June 18, 2017 at 4:18 pm
Thankyou sweets! 😙✌ you’ve made my day!
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June 23, 2017 at 6:29 pm
Wow..❤️
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July 4, 2017 at 11:07 pm
In so many ways this reminds of a friend I had, she said she would here voices and screams in the night, she would blast the TV outrageously loud said it was the only way to drown them out, this lovely composition reminds me of her my heart is warmed and for that I thank you Chaos 💓
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August 21, 2017 at 9:30 am
i hope shes out of the claws of insomnia.. thanks for taking the time to comment!! xoxo
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